Not much of anything

The last few days I have not done much of anything.  My husband was on his spring break, lucky for me, because I have had the worst headaches/migraines I have had in a great while.  Now, this is not fun at all.  I say "lucky" because that means I had help with the kids while I have been trying to lie as still as possible in a dark room with a dark cloth over my eyes.  However, its terrible!  This was his spring break!  And here we are, Sunday night!  He goes back to school tomorrow and all we were able to manage was visit across town to my dad once, a small hour long trip to the beach at sunset earlier in the week and a trip to the grocery store together.  We were amazed at the feeling of all FOUR of us being out together.  We had not realized how busy Mr P has been and how it has kept us all from doing things as a family OUTSIDE of the home.  The poor kids got such a very little while for fun at the beach, but they loved it.  I finally got to run around with them a little today on a nearby patch of grass, but its pitiful really.

I wish these blasted headaches would just go away.  Or at least that someone would help me to learn, is this really from the fibro like the neurologist claims and will i really struggle everyday, or what?  What is it and can it be fixed?


Something to sing about: I am able to have joy, in spite of pain.  This is a fact.  Whether or not I choose to live it is sometimes part of my poor decision making.  This has been a hard lesson for me to learn.  I am reading A Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp.  And this verse from the bible is a great comfort, "I would have despaired unless I believed 
that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the 
 land of the living." Psalm 27:13


Golden, truly golden, words to me.  Like light after years in darkness, and this learning to be thankful for everyday mercies and blessings, its life blood to my system.  I, who have sometimes been dried of the hope of ever being better or of having joy; I, the one who has struggled with feelings of not being valuable because I cannot function like everyone else and when I try I only hurt myself and setting my family back.  This verse, knowing that I have seen, do see, and will continue to see all the many good things the Lord has in store for us, here while I'm imperfect is a comfort.  I will keep searching them out. 
I am making a List of the things I "sing" about.  I highly recommend it.