An everyday occurrence

For the last, I am not even sure how long, I have suffered from headaches.  I had migraines growing up, took excedrin and that would help.  This is different.  I have had more headaches, probably tension headaches from the upper back/shoulder/neck pain I deal with all the time since the onset of fibromyalgia.  However, for the last two years or so, my head aches have become so much worse.  After a trip to the emergency room about a year and a half ago, all we could learn was that I was anemic.  I have done everything to remedy that, and still the headaches persist just as the title to this posting suggests, EVERYDAY.  every.single.day. I have a headache.  My neurologist firmly believes it is due to the fibromyalgia.  I wish my rheumatologist was someone I could speak to frankly.  I have told him about the headaches.  But I don;t think he heard me.  He was too busy reading the report from the lst appointment.  (insert heavy sigh here).  It doesn't help that I have only seen him once in the last year, getting his PA for all the other visits.   DR. S is nice, and everyone says he is great at what he does.  I guess I just don't have the guts to really be pushy and say, "HEY, something is wrong here.  Why don't you ever do a real examination?  Will you please listen to me?"  Instead I sit there, answer his questions, repeat it l o u d e r because he can't hear me half the time.  Maybe he is getting too old?  Maybe I need to switch Drs?  I don't know how to do that and I'm fearful I will find a lousy Dr.  But these headaches, man, I feel like my brain is rotting.  Praise God the MRI came back just fine.  Are these daily migraines/aches from the fibro?  Does that mean they will never go away because the fibro will never go away?  The prospect of that is enough to drive me crazy.  In my 20s and I already dread the future in regard to my everyday well being.  Really, will it be just years and years of feeling like crap?  Sevenish years down, how many to go this way?

I could really use a cupcake right about now.

5:44pm and we have not been out of the house today.  Gonna go get some cheeseburgers and try to make up for being such a lousy mom now that I have some relief from this headache.  Zomig, you are my best friend, if only there were more than nine of you a month.

Something to sing about:
My children playing together.   J was ring leader/ master of ceremonies of some sort this morning.  Holding a makeshift baton up in the air and saying, "lalies and genelmen! GOD LOVES YOU VERY MUCH."  as N tumbled across the living room floor.